Sunday, September 02, 2007
Motivation
It's out of my grasp, once things start piling up.I feel like I'm on a mission to dig 111 holes. I start digging at one, think of the other 110 that I have yet to start, skip over to another patch to dig, think of the other holes I have yet to dig AND the one I have yet to complete, and skip yet to another... to another... to another...
It's never ending. I'm glad I took only 5 subjects, 19 AUs this semester. But I'm hardly breathing normally. I feel like I have yet to learn anything new. I'm simply completing the mindless tasks thrown upon me.
CS 302 - Statistics and Data Analysis (Saved by sexy MO, who is leaving soon. I doubt the Korean can beat MO in the hot factor.)
CS 334 - Communication Campaigns (Need to contact SWATCH, need to do research, but not the true, actual, rigorous type. I have no idea what I'm doing, and I feel stressed. 'Cos I like to know what's happening, where we are going, with no sub-standard work. Mediocrity is just not my cup of tea.)
CS 341- Audience Research Methods (Seems like I find fault with everything. Am I just being a silly perfectionist, or is there something wrong? I remind myself to be tactful, but yet I can't leave possible mistakes hanging without voicing them out. And for once, nobody seems to get what I'm trying to say.)
CS 348 - Media Economics (The class is supposed to be interesting, but Fu treats as like fools. All I can do is nod vigorously in class.)
HS 812 - Emotions in Everyday Life (This happens to be the class I really look forward to every week, simply because the lecturer plays nice video clips.)
It doesn't help that the starting of all the projects are extremely crucial. It doesn't help that I have difficulty handing down my stuff for the clubs (probably only in September). It doesn't help that making money is always at the back of my head.
It will help if I have more time, maybe 40 hours a day. It will help if most things can be done individually (unfortunately, they are not). And they says it will help if I tell others my problems (which I wouldn't, unless asked).
Last semester was one great semester out of SCI. I learnt LOADS. All the economics make me feel... satisfied, fulfilled. Like when you just have a wonderful meal, you know?
This semester back at SCI is totally different. I think it's more character building than anything else. It's like an emotional roller coaster ride; plunging without knowing where it ends, climbing without seeing the peak.
But what doesn't kill only makes you stronger right? After all, all roller coaster rides end at the station, leaving you feeling exhilarated.
I will survive.
Labels: NTU, school, Singapore, WKWSCI
posted by QueenPig @ 7:38 PM
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Boo! Don't stress, don't stress, haha.. Take things one at a time ba, then the piled-up stuff won't seem that overwhelming :) Jia you, jia you, jia you!!!
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At 6:25 PM ,
said...dun worry. it's liddat. i am quite used to it. it's really interesting when you look back, where all your 5 days of the week is piled to the brim with project meetings and lessons, even during lunch time! sometimes weekends also got, then cos' no common time to meet meet online at 11pm. it's a wonder when u look back how you survived haha.
sense of satisfaction i dun really think so ba, but amazement at your survival, yes. haha.
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