Monday, December 31, 2007

The last of 2007

Since this is the last of 2007, I shall dedicate this post to it.

2007 has been a roller coaster ride for me. In chronological order as follows:

1. I took a whole semester of Economics.

Thoroughly enjoyed it. Economics was something that made me feel that knowledge is tangible and measurable. I felt good after every lesson, knowing that I walked away with something new.


However, this semester also made me think that I'm in the wrong course. Sure, I do want a career in Communications, but studying Economics was so much easier and fulfilling. I don't have to put myself against anyone.


2. I was back to a loner for that Economics semester.


I was pretty anti-social in primary school, speaking as little as possible. Don't ask me what happened; I have no idea why I changed. But I believe that I might still be innately anti-social. I spoke only to the lecturer and had imaginary conversations with myself and the economics concepts.

And I loved it.


3. I worked at PRL.

Well, I discovered that I love being around people. This may seem to contradict the above point, but hey, I can be around people and be anti-social!

I discovered I love to see happy customers. I discovered I love to fold clothes. And I discovered that very often, I may seem not to be listening, but actually I'm taking in loads of stuff.

4. I ended my first relationship.

Sure, it was hard. Nobody said it was easy. But I survived it.

It wasn't something anyone wanted, but I know I've put in more than 100% as usual and I don't intend to regret the decision.

I learnt alot through this experience. I would like to thank the man who once made my day simply by being around. Thank you Gambat Tay, if you are seeing this! I may not be the best girlfriend for you, but you are probably one of the best boyfriend any other girl would have wished for. We may not be suited to be couples, but I do hope we can still be friends. :) Jiayou in life yea?


5. I sort of suffered a little depression for a week.


With so many negative things happening, I can't help but feel a little depressed. There were days I simply doesn't feel like doing anything. I slept through the day without food, waking up only to take little sips of water and going to the toilet (duh).

But it was also through this that I love my roomie more. Thank you roomie! *hug* And I also found DLL who, together with roomie, dragged me out of bed to have dinner. Thanks!


Well, what doesn't kill only make you stronger. It's okay that I felt down. It's okay that I let the tears flow then. It's okay that there are setbacks. 'Cos I learnt that after the down slope, there is always an up slope.


6. I specialised in Communication Research.


Being the fickle-minded Queen (ahem) that I am, I was contemplating between PPC and CR. Ultimately, I chose CR, simply because I saw more value-added in this course in WKWSCI. Very practical, eh?


Sometime in the semester, I begin to regret this decision. I didn't enjoy data collection. Research to me was very much individual/pair work. Working in groups became tough. I found that I'm a perfectionist, to the extent that sometimes I hurt others by stepping into their area of work.


But CR has also let me know some people whom I wouldn't have thought of talking to. They are the ones who make going to school more enjoyable each day. Plus, the grades show I am a little capable of research. ^^


Of course, I wouldn't forget my beloved MO. *grins*


7. Buddhism came into my life.


I've called myself a Buddhist simply because my beliefs coincide with the basic beliefs of Buddhism. But after such a roller coaster, life became much too precious to be wasted. I took a little step to understand more about this so caled 'religion'.


It has helped me deal with the negatives of the year. It came at the right time; after everything ended. I felt relieved and optimistic. Whoever said Buddhism is a pessimistic religion/philsophy probably needs to read more.


Not trying to preach here, but I can already feel the positive effects it has on me. I appreciate my friends more (thanks to the crappy councillors, CS clique, NAS peepz, airen, tortiz, hall peepz etc). I appreciate the things that happen to me, good or bad, more. Most importantly, I appreciate my family more. To praise the things I learnt would take another lengthy post, so that's another topic for another time! ^^


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Now that I've ranted the 7 (2007 mah, so 7 lor) major happenings, I'm just going to list the 7 resolutions. Perhaps at the end of 2008 (which already is an exciting year marked with overseas trip), I will look back and review my resolutions!


1. Remain optimistic
2. Continue giving more than 100% in the things I do
3. Take initiative to do things that I want
4. Keep my temper under check, especially towards people I love
5. Read more
6. Speak good words, do good actions, cultivate good thoughts
7. Be generous with my love and spread the goodwill


What's your 7 major happenings and resolutions for 2007? ^^

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Thursday, December 27, 2007

Scarily Emo

I was in the train on my way to meet my friends. I dozed off a little.

You know, those kind of sleep that is not deep. The kind that has your brains whizzing, but the physical body motionless?

Ya, I was in that kind of sleep. It suddenly dawned on me that I'll be gone in about 10 days.

I teared. For some reason, I got emo.

I think the trip to Shanghai is not scary. The thought of change is scary.

I'm afraid of going and returning. I'm afraid that the people I love will be upset and I can't be there for them. I'm afraid that relationships and feelings will change.

But I'm brave. And I will have faith.

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Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Innocent Question 79

Why is Christmas known to be a season of love?

Christmas makes people brave.

Happy Boxing Day! ^^

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Tuesday, December 25, 2007

The Journey of Understanding

There are times when we think we don't understand someone. Or more often, others don't understand us.

I was pondering deeply over this yesterday night, fretting over why this is the case and feeling uneasy about it.

As part of a bedtime habit, I picked up the book on Buddhism that Shi Xiong lent me to read before sleeping.

Then it struck me.

Everything is nothing and nothing is everything. One can understand another/self, but yet not understand at the same time. Change is the only constant, making the journey of understanding a never-ending one.

When someone says "I don't understand you/myself", all he needs to do is think a little harder and he will realise that he actually does. When someone says "I understand you/myself", thinking a little harder will let him find out things that he don't understand.

Understanding someone, including the self, is a journey. Take the time to explore.

The question now is, the self does and doesn't exist - how? :/

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Friday, December 21, 2007

Double Blessings

YEA! Good things always come in twos!

I'VE GOT MY BURSARY!

*skips and dances around in glee*

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Thursday, December 20, 2007

Blessed

I have a housemate!

BONUS! She's uber cute and bubbly! I LIKE! Muahahaa...

*skips around in glee*

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Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Things to be done

1. Visa
2. Write a cheque to GIP for university fees in China
3. Medical check-up
4. Get a big suitcase
5. Buy travel insurance
6. Book flight
7. Look for housemates
8. Look for an agent and get an apartment
9. Borrow/buy winter wear
10. Pack necessities and change S$ to RMB
11. Check out rules/regulations
12. Buy external hard-disk
13. Get a new battery for my old camera. Or get a new camera? :x

As can be seen from above, there's a ton of things I have yet to do! Most urgent of those are 7 and 8... I feel like an abandoned kitten...

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Friday, December 14, 2007

Pigs Smile Too!

Do you know why pigs smile when they look at the sky?

It's because of F4 朱孝天 (猪笑天)!

OMP!! This is so funny! Credits to the birthday boy. Haha...

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Happy Birthday!

To the "handsome and sturdy man":

Time flies! You're one year older again!

Happy Birthday!

May all your wishes come true! Stay 阳光 and cheerful yea! ^^

And of course, continue being the wonderful "Santa" that is ultra elastic! Hohoho~

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I'm Amazed

I'm always amazed by people who are able to put themselves above all other things or people.

Like how Cute QQ says she's motivated by the SELF. Like how some people can fight to death with others for something. Like how some people can scheme and live against their consciences to achieve what they want.

I can't.

I have no self.

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Given any situation within my control and means, I will readily give up some personal luxury to help others.

Like, if I have the time to finish my job a little earlier so you can better plan your time, I'll do it. Like, if you need to complete a survey, I'll do it. Like, if you need someone to give you a wake up cal, I'll do it.

Personal achievements, material comforts and luxuries all, are but nothing. They can't be there forever. Forever keeps changing. They keep changing too.

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I'm growing doubts. I'm getting disappointed in human beings.

I know I shouldn't let the few unenlightened souls on the earth affect me, but oh, how selfish they are.

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STOP! All these negative thoughts! You sow the seeds of negative thoughts and you breed more negative thoughts!

*change focus*

Thank Piggy God for my DLL and other friends for support. QueenPig is super blessed! ^^

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Thursday, December 13, 2007

Do you know?

Do you know that there's a webby www.queenpig.com? How come I know nothing about it?

Which subordinate of mine did it! OWN UP! *growls* It's a political site! Politics are not talked about in Piggidom!

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I'm very broke. Anyone wanna contribute to the "Save QueenPig" fund?

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Saturday, December 08, 2007

我发现

我发现了解一个人,很难。
我发现了解自己,更难。

我发现往目标前进,不容易。
我发现找到目标,更不容易。

我发现舍身帮助他人,很辛苦。
我发现帮助自己,更辛苦。

我发现,有逃开逃避的念头,有往目标前进的勇气,也有帮助他人的想法。
我发现,在茫茫人海中,我不了解自己,迷失了目标,也无法帮助自己。

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Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Seeing Ghosts

Mummy: Why that Chen Wei Lian Kelvin don't wanna go for cornea operation?
Uncle: Don't need cornea operation la. Just transplant a pig's eyes or cornea. All mammals mah.
Mummy: If that's the case, why not transfer a dog's eyes? Then he will be able to see ghosts!
QueenPig: dash underscore dash -_-

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Happy Birthday to Cute QQ!



Paiseh, the photos don't do justice to her cuteness. :x
Happy birthday girl. You are the star of many lives! ^^

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Innocent Question 78

How do you count your suitors?

I was watching a Taiwanese variety show the other day, and the girl said she had 10 guys after her at a point in time.

How is it possible? She merely THINK they are interested in her or what?

Well, I only count if that person confess before. Anything short of "I like you" will not be counted.

Then again, I don't consciously COUNT the suitors. Why do those girls do that?

Do guys do this too?

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Sunday, December 02, 2007

Innocent Question 77

How comfortable are you with physical space?

I'm uncomfortable if people I don't know stand within an arms length of me. It's like, I can sense their presence and it irks me. That's why I don't like to go to crowded places alone.

On the other hand, I'm totally comfortable if the person is someone I know. In fact, he/she can stand shoulder to shoulder and it'll be okay. Why??

Singapore is aiming to have a population of 6 million. I think it's already way too overcrowded now. If there're 6 million people, I think I'll lock myself at home and never step out again!

Alternatively, I can go befriend more people. ^^

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